the week of.

It's the week of the Jason Gray extravaganza at my church this weekend. I'm mostly excited, but also nervous. It's turned into a bigger event then I thought it would. People calling and emailing asking for information, constant advertisement on the radio, and still tying up loose ends with Jason coming. I think this will be a huge defining moment for me and what I am supposed to do with my life, depending on how it goes. This has been a wonderful opportunity to see a bit of what goes into planning a concert, and making it happen.

Also, this has been a great learning experience in my walk with God. He's been testing me, and seeing how strong my faith is, and how much I trust Him. It's been tough, but it's better that I do. In the end, i'll be grateful for it. There are times where I want to freak out and take things into my own hands, but I end up destroying myself in the end. My emotions are flying left and right, and I can feel my stomach twisting and turning. The latest loop that has been thrown my way has been completely different. I feel peace and completely understand that God's got it. This is not my concert, ultimately it is His.

family outing.

Yesterday was quite the day. I spent it with my family, and it was lovely. My favorite part of the day was yesterday evening. We went on a family outing. I knew where we were going, because my mom told me. We were going to see "Where The Wild Things Are" and go out to dinner at Duffy's. My step-sister Sarah and two step-brothers Jacob and Chris had no idea.

So we set off yesterday afternoon, on our way to Lowe's for 'three hours' before the movie started. They all looked so thrilled, I almost couldn't handle the excitement. While we were walking in, my mom and Brad were telling them that we were going to grab a hot dog on our way out. Jacob was so excited. The best part was that he had absolutely no idea. I love the excitement of a 9 year old. We walked around Lowe's for about an hour, looking at things to repair our bathrooms.

On our way out, we realized that the hot dog stand was gone. So we were 'trying' to figure out what to do. Brad said "Well, we've got 7-11 or Hess for dinner." Ha! We 'decided' on Hess. Meanwhile, Brad is driving over to where Duffy's is and they still just don't get it. We got out of the car and started walking up and Brad says to Jacob while we're walking in, "We're only going to the bathroom in here, then we're leaving." Jacob says, "I don't have to go to the bathroom." Brad says, "Just go in!" and nudges him in. Then we talk to the hostess and she seats us. Then Jacob realizes that we are not eating at Hess and we are, in fact, eating at Duffy's. He then proceeds to go "Oh yeah! I love this place!" and does a triumphant fist pump. It was cute.

After enjoying a meal, we made our way to the mall. We walked around a little bit to wait for the movie to start. Then, it was finally time! I just have to say, this movie was everything I thought it would be and more. The funny thing is, I hated the book when I was little, because it scared me. It was quite the opposite for the movie, though. It left me reaching deep down inside myself for the things of my past. It was interesting to see the different character traits of the Wild Things, and how Max related to them. We finished the night with ice cream from McDonalds. My family never really gets to do things like that, so it was a really nice thing to get to do.

Whew! Sorry about that post earlier. I just had to get that out of my system. I'm doing much better this afternoon.

Well, Happy Halloween, my friends! It's another hot day here in Florida. For some reason every Halloween is always super hot. It's a bummer, because it makes it really hard to get into the mood for great Fall festivities. I plan on handing out candy to the trick or treaters. It will probably be a pretty quiet night. Halloween isn't as big as it used to be in my neighborhood, since most of the kids (my old friends) have all grown up and gone off to college. Not many new kids have moved into the neighborhood. Ah, well, I hope all of you have a great evening filled of fun and fall! Happy Halloween!

honestly.

I hope this doesn't put a damper on anyone's Halloween parade, but i've got to be honest for a minute here.

Sometimes I seriously wonder if anyone's parents taught them how to think before they speak, but lately i've been dealing with a lot of people talking and they have no idea. Like, seriously? Did your parents teach you? Do you think before you speak? Have you ever thought of how your comments and hurt someone or mess with someone's mind? I mean, really, it's common sense. Thanks for proving my point even further that barely anyone has any of that stuff.

There will always be someone out there who tries to take a good thing and turn it into a bad thing. Maybe out of jealously, maybe because they just don't understand, or maybe they really just don't have enough common sense to realize how badly it can bother someone. So please, if you're reading this, atleast while you're around me, use that thing in your head called a brain before you speak. Think about how your words and actions can really hurt someone in the long run.

On my agenda for today:

1. Concert planning.
2. Straightening up my house.
3. Washing my dog.
4. Clean my room.
5. Job interview at Justice.
6. Maybe fit in some leisurely reading.
7. Concert planning.
8. Enjoy a great evening with my church family at our 2nd annual fall festival!

Have a wonderful day! I hope you get to enjoy some great fall festivities this weekend!

I wish the thoughts and things that I want to blog about could immediately be transferred from my brain when I think them up. There is just so much I want to tell my small group of readers here. One thing at a time, I guess. Well, if you've stuck around for the past week, you should have read this. Also, If you follow me on twitter you may have already heard about it. If you haven't, this is your lucky day.

Jason Gray will be coming to my church, Grace Emmanuel Church, on Saturday November 14th, 2009. There! My secret is out, and does it feel good! This whole thing has come together in crazy time, and it's a lot to handle, but i'm doing a fine job. It's exciting to get to be the planner for the concert. It's my first experience like this, and I really enjoy it.

I'm also happy to report that my sleep schedule from all of this excitement is back to normal, because I know God's got it all under control. It's probably also because i've been super busy with all of this stuff and school and and and and...My life has suddenly gotten busy. Wasn't I just complaining about not having anything to do a couple weeks ago?

tuesday thoughts.

After starting my four-day-a-week class at the college, I have had a lot less time to enjoy great and wonderful thing. Especially things that inspire me, or that I enjoy greatly. Not only that, but i've had a lot going on with that secret of mine, trying to straighten out the last details before I do any revealing. Don't worry, though, you'll find out probably this week sometime. It's fun having a secret. It's even better when the extreme excitement has worn off and you finally get to sleep at night. Beautiful sleep all the way through the night. For instance, I got 11 hours last night. Can't even remember the last time I did that.

I'm seriously feeling bummed out about our weather patterns here in good old Florida. I walked outside this morning and wanted to die. For real. Humidity sucks the fun out of everything. It's almost November and we have only had one cool/cold front. This better not be one of those abnormally warm "winters". I'd be super bummed. The cooler weather keeps me going and brings my soul to life. I just can't deal with not having a winter.

My college class is going well. It consists of mostly math, because that's what needs to be worked on the most. I'm realizing that my problem here is that my brain just needs to be refreshed. For the most part I know what i'm doing, but there are little things here and there that I have forgotten in order for me to get the correct answer for a problem. Once the teacher shows me what i've done wrong, I immediately figure it out and dominate the lessons. It's much easier after having learned this stuff once in my life before.

Ah, well, just my Tuesday Thoughts, I guess. Have a beautiful day!